Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I screwed up Geography today. Didn't manage to finish the paper, 8 marks are gone...gone ..gone..
Sigh~ At the rate i fared in SS and Geog, i think i will fail Combined Humanities. SS also didn't finish but it was worse than Geog. About 20 marks are gone from SS. It would be a miracle if i managed to even get a C5 or pass my Combined Humanities.
I'm thinking of wearing coloured contact lenses for Cultural Night..should i or should i not??? If i should, what colour? Hazel, gray, Gold ( haha...i know what you are thinking. Pameline Cullen!) , brown or -shriek- blue?
Hmm, but i really need to get used to contact lenses cause i will be wearing them in my ballet concert and i can't see a damn thing. Since i'm like dancing close to the edge, i might miss and fall offstage...whoops, shouldn't have even made that thought. *shudders*
I know when is Edward's birthday... I will never tell you. Beg me for it...Muahahaha....
Anyone wants to make a Twilight t-shirt and wear it to the Twilight movie? I know i'm dying to do that. But wouldn't it look as if we were like totally obsessed with the movie and many people will like stare at us???
By the way, every movie has an official web page. So here is Twilight the Movie. Note: The movie is still in production so web page is kinda empty until everything is done.
http://www.thetwilightmovie.com/
9:20 PM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Okay Twilighters, this is another present brought to you by the cast of Twilight. The Twilight OFFICIAL blog is up and running.
http://www.greetingsfromtwilight.com/
Go check it out. Theres like a cool new video about the ballet studio scene. Edward was like kena bashed against the mirror.Like, ouch!
Yeah. Horray. I love you Robert Pattinson. Thanks for making Edward come alive!Oh ya, i almost forget. I hate children too! Especially babies. I absolutely detest them. And i promise to clap for every show, every scene and everytime you appear on tv. I'll even clap for you 24/7. Now will you marry me????
(For those who have no idea what am i crapping about, follow this link and you will know why
Click here!)
3:16 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008
Okay...hmm. E math paper today was relatively easy. I am sure i'll score above 50 marks since i have confidently counted those questions which i am very sure i'll get it right. English, not too bad, but my answers were quite long, like 6 to 7 lines long. Well, what to do? I'm trained to answer like a literature student now.
Anyways, back to serious matters. I'm not sure what is your agenda. But can both of you please stop what you guys are doing now? If you want an apology, fine. I'm very sorry for calling out profanities about both of you. I'll even delete my post about what happened. We can pretend this thing didn't exist. But the nerve of either one of you telling WeiJie about what happened till he went to flame me online is preposterous. Flaming another person online is called cyber-bullying. It is a case where i can actually sue you in court. So think twice before you start flaming a person. Yes, i;m talking about you Weijie.
Robert Pattinson, gosh, i think i am swooning even as i type, your birthday is coming! Hooray!
2:12 PM
Friday, April 25, 2008
*updated playlist:
1) Yiruma-River flows in you ( potential Bella's lullaby)
2) Yiruma- Kiss the rain ( potential Esme's song)
3) Switchfoot- Learning to breathe ( Edward and bella- in Twilight, there is a paragraph that Edward tells Bella that he learns how to breathe, how to smile again after meeting her. So this songs reminds me of Edward.)
4) Teardrops on my guitar ( Bella)
5) Tongue Tied ( Bella n Jacob)
6) Come On ( Edward n bella)
Okay my room looks like as if a tornado has swept across it. Its a danger-zone! Anyways, went for chem tuition today. Was happy cuz i know all my chem stuff, well, most of it anyways. I'm sure i;m gonna pass chem. This will be my present to Ms Rina.
Anyways, after chem, i went to White Sands challenger to buy my earphones. Bought Creative ones at $19.00. Wanted to buy the noice-cancellation ones but it costs $49! WTH? Then proceeded to the library. Borrow James Patterson books. Dunno which ones Mdm Zurina had introduced themtitle to me so i just grabbed the one with the most interesting summary and a Stephen King- The Mist book and then headed home. Then i passed by the Ben n Jerry's ice-cream palour and since it was FREE CONE DAY, i felt obliged to grab one. But no. Must not indulge in sinful treats. After exams, can.
Went home, did physics revision. Composed parts of Switchfoot's Learning to Breathe on piano and continued pkaying Yiruma's piano pieces until mom and dad got home. Then no physics tuition today so i decided to slack until 9pm then study again. Yay!
Sigh-Social Studies was crap. Did not mangage to finish one of the SEQ. I knew i shouldn't have spend too much time on SBQ. haix. It;s over. Fail! Ahhh!
Edward Cullen, how i wish you were real. Then maybe you can bring me to Forks and we can spend the rest of eternity together~
7:48 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Okay, as requested by Priscilla, this is the link to go for your Twilight sneak peaks. The site will be updated every Tuesday with more new news about Twilight including interviews with Kristen and the incredibly hot Robert. Thus, every tuesday is know to all Twilighters as Twilight Tuedays!
Yay! *WARNING: SPOILER ALERT. IF YOU WANT TO BE SURPRISED, DO NOT GO TO THIS WEBSITE. IF YOU ARE A BIG FAN OF ROBERT, PLEASE WARN THE PEOPLE INHABITING YOUR HOUSE OF WHAT YOU ARE DOING. GET AN AMBULANCE READY AND MANY TISSUE PAPERS TO WIPE YOUR DROOL*
http://moviesblog.mtv.com/?s=twilight
4:39 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
First things first
1) I AM NOT CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE!!!! Thendiana was joking. Dying is not even on my mind.
2) I cried today because the results was another heavy blow to me since yesterday's big issue. My soul and mind really cannot take it so i broke down.
Does all of that answer your questions? By the way, yes, its true. I didn't get the PGA which was fine by me. Congratulations Rachel. You deserved it. PGA wasn't important to me.
Well, i got upset due to many throat-cutting remarks made by two girls. I mean, hello. I am already upset about your issue and there you are happily saying "Serves her right. She didn't deserve that award." What if Rachel didn't get it and i got it? Will you blame me too? Is it very fun? Making me cry all day long, making me skip lessons just to go for counsellings?
I already quit talking bad things about you guys and even took them back. But hey, you guys came back double the force. Tell me, is it fun?
Do you like being a sadist? Enjoying other people's misery? Sometimes when some teachers ask me what is wrong, i feel compiled to tell them what happened. Boy, to see the shock on their faces when they finally know your true colours. But no. I didn't want to ruin your perfect facade in SKSS. You get my point? And i keep hearing things you say about me from my many spies in 4e2 and from other classes. I'm ashamed that God had created a person with a heart so vile and black that it is equivalent to the dunnest smoke in Hell.
By the way, please watch out for your actions, some Very important people are tracking your every speech and every move. Think before you speak mindlessly about me. You never know what happens in the staff-room.
Thats about it. I would like to thank all my close friends for being there with me, when i cry or even giving me comforting smiles. Thanks so much. I think i will not be the same again. But i swear, i will not cry over this issue ever again. It's not worth it.
8:38 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
Okay, terrible things happened in school. Don't want to elaborate any further least i reopen new wounds and further anger a certain person whom shall not be named.
Yes, i know i'm not supposed to use the computer until my exams are over but i really need to get it off my chest.
I am no longer angry after going for councilling which Thendiana referred me to. The councilor prayed for me since both of us were Christians so it made things easier. She told me to forgive and forget, don't bear any grudges anymore as they will harm me further if i suppress it in. After the councilling, i felt drained but otherwise fine. I;m not afraid of any bullying words. What is there to be afraid. They are just words.
So i'll just forget it, i will erase this from my memory. Ask me and i will give u a blank look. Do me a favour, don't remind me of this issue anymore. What is done is done.
Nothing has happened.
After listening to Edward's Lullaby and playing it a dozen times over and over on the piano
( yes..all twilight fans. Many ppl claimed that this song, Yiruma- River flows in you, is Edward's lullaby to Bella)
I feel relaxed .
No more injustice, everytime i look out of the door, i wish that Edward or Robin will save me and bring me to another world where friends remain as friends and there are no enemies.
No, i;m not suicidal. Just feeling depressed and emo. Maybe i should try slashing my wrists haha..kidding. like i will be ever so stupid to try it.
Wadever. I'm done~ I'm of to study Bio!
Hold on i forgot to post this: Twilight Behind the scenes (new) with part of the proposed movie trailer inside
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27UnmiA_ge8
OMG, i can't wait to watch this movie! It's gonna be great!
5:25 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Okay, today i'm going for Lit class. Gonna confess to teacher that i did not do the project and did not want to waste my precious time chasing after my project members, screw them anyways.
I'd rather gaze at Edward Cullen aka Robert Pattinson all day long. Sigh, now i have two crushes, my darling Robin from Teen Titans and Edward Cullen from Twilight. Gosh, i'm a two timer....darn. Sorry guys.
Then today i realised something. The rapper Flo Rida, who was shot to fame by the song Low.
If you paste his name together into one word, it says, Florida( USA). Weird huh?
yEAH, was feeling rather lethagic today, wandering from room to room like a lost ghost. My horoscope is opposing me today. It says i must gather my project mates and tell them to complete our project, reconcile our "friendship" Yes, i hate them, i wasted 20 smses on them and most of my nights when i should be studying while waiting for them to go online. Crap.
Darn, if they were in SKSS, i'll show them a thing or two. No one opposes me during project meetings, no one.
I hate going to lit class now. But i'm going to work hard and screw their fucking grades into their asses. Show them who is boss....assholes.
Sorry, lil rant here and there... back to my lovely Edward Cullen. If only i can have a picture with you, my life is complete, Hell, i took pictures with Robin already...Edward, you are next! *giggles like a crazed fan-girl*
10:05 AM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Okay i got pissed off again but not by the usuals. It's by the two Ms that sit together in the same row. Clue: Nah ask me.
It started when Mr Quek was asking them to read what they had done for oral picture discussion. So M1 read first. Then when the first sentence didn't make any sense, i saw M2 nudging M1 and both of them looked at KY as if blaming her.
Then when suddenly M1 started talking about the students being siblings or relatives. Then i started thinking.." WTH? This picture is not even about family day or whatcrap". Then M1 said. I think they might be relatives cuase they look the same. And i was like my cousin don;t look like me bodoh. Since when relatives looked like each other? Hello? Obviously you didn;t study Biology to know about Heredity.Then Daren shouted " Is that relevant?" And i also whispered to Thendiana "Not relevant to the picture lor". By chance, M2 overheard and then both of them got pissed.
Then later they saw that no one was interested in them cuz 3/4 of the class doing their own things. Then they were like "Aiya, we dun wanna read already la. Somebody said we not relevant. See what they write la."
So Mr quek called on my group. Then Hwee Lin asked me to read but i didn't want to. So i was like ..." Dun wan, Wan Ngoh read..."
Then M2 imitated me whining. WTF? FB!!! I refused to read because i don't wanna show off. Okay. Its like everytime mr Quek nominate me to read. Then when Wan Ngoh started reading, both of them shut up cuz our group's sentences makes sense. I mean pls la. If you ran out of lines just think of something related to the picture. What crap about Oh i think they are relatives cuz they look alike. RUBBISH.
OH and M1 i heard sooo many gossips about you. Wanna know a famous one? I can name 5 thousand ppl that hates you since sec 1 starting from me.
*%&%$&$#65$9&(%6456577^7785^&3^7890897*96^&%5$%3%$3^%$2^%*()7*()7()-9
Excuse the vulgar censored profanities above. It is not for the faint hearted.
Back to the good old world. Oh ya. OMG! Robert Pattinson is soooooo hot. When i saw him acting behind-the -scenes in Twilight. I was like....OMG!!! EDWARD CULLEN IS ALIVE!!!!!
If you want links, i'll post it online here:
Entertainment Tonight interview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8q3l6L1ZDA
MTV INTERVIEW: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLL_jliMisw
Biology class ( footage) : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ezxo-Xh_6sE
Famous crash scene : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-3m_IM6GvU&feature=related
* Note: Edward ran away... he is supposed to stay by Bella's side..Oh dear~
3:33 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Oh wow oh wow oh wow....
Attention all Twilight fans, go to Stephenie Meyer website or Youtube and check out Twilight behind the scenes action. Oh my god. I'm sooo ,looking forward to the show!!!!!
5:01 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I don't know about my PGA results and it would be good if you don't ask me about it. It adds on to my already frazzled nerves. Ya~
Thanks for your cooperation.
I don't know if you can hear me
Or if you're even there
I don't know if you would listen
To a humble prayer
Yes i know I'm just an outcast
I shouldn't speak to you
Still i see your face and wonder
Weren't you once an outcast to?
God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don't find on Earth
God help my people
The poor and down-trod
God help the outcasts
Or nobody will...
I ask for nothing
I can get by
But i know so many
Less lucky than I
Please help me people
We look to you still
I thought we all were
The children of God
8:37 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Okay, one word to describe today's B-P test....WOW!
Actually it's kinda okay. At first you don't know what to do...then as you proceed on you get the hang of it. I guess, i didn't really prepare it well. But i did score in the impromptu speech. I did not prepare any speech la. It;s like okay, i just write down definitions of ASEAN. The rest just came out from my mouth.
Well, it was nice to see some of my fellow SKY Guides at HQ. They also wished us luck. And my PGA Test camp campers. I saw 4 of them which i knew. So sweet of them to give their best wishes.
Haha....Ballet. pointe Shoes again. I'm starting to like going en pointe. it;s like so damn fun and my dream when i started ballet in Primary 3, was to go en pointe. I guess that now i've gotten my wish.
Alright, enought crapping, gonna do tuition homework. Starting tomorrow, no blogging unless it's really important. study and mug allllll the way! whoo~
10:03 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
Muahahaha...tomorrow is the big day. Tomorrow is the day that might change my life forever.... tomorrow is the B-P TEST!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!
I'm so damn scared now la. It's like 12 hours later, you'll be in that room, alone, preparing for your question/task.
But i would like to thank Mdm Zurina, omg she was like so damn nice. We had another "briefing" and then SKY Guides presented us with motivational and Good Luck cards to me and Rachel. Then I had a prayer session with Mdm Zurina and Rachel. iT WAS, LIKE whoa!
Then i stayed back in school cuz my bag is kinda heavy. So i lingered around and finally got bored so i sneaked into the empty school hall and started playing the piano.
I was alone, the hall was empty, i played my heart and soul out. So damn fun!
Ya, then stayed back for taps. Then Mdm Zurina asked me if i had fun playing the piano just now and i was shocked that she knew. Then she told me some guides saw me in the hall, so she thought that either i was playing badminton or playing the piano. HAHA, then she said it's not me to play badminton so she think i was playing the piano. LOL.
Then she hugged me and thanked me for staying back. LOL. Ya.... so touching. Some guides hugged me and wished me luck.
Thanks sooo much for all those lovely letters. ^_^
9:29 PM
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
i shall not let this matter pull me down.
I am going to do well for my physics test, do well for PGA and become skss next President Guide and make mummy and daddy proud.
I have my best friend's issue to worry about.
Don;t bother me....
Don;t talk to me...
I dun give a damn....
You know who you are...
Oh i;m sorry, i forgot. You don't go online that often, let alone read my blog.
Well, thats too bad.
What a sad life you have, don;t you know who Nelly Futardo is? Ohh, i don;t even think you know who is Kanye West or who Rihanna is.
Sad~
All day long is *-*-*.
10:18 PM
I am seriously pissed off right now, again.
This person, apparently with no whatsoever reason, started spreading around lies claiming that i hate her. WHAT THE FUCK?
Hello? Since when did i proclaim to the world or even got the idea in my head that i hate you?
Yes, i know i still bear grudges about your mindless comment during sec 1. But i have let that matter rest and buried it away. Today, you just dug it out, slashed it with your cutting remarks and even rub salt into the fresh wounds.
So what if i don't talk to you in class? I don;t have the reason to. Does that make you think i hate you? So what if i laugh behind your back? Someone made a joke. Does that mean i hate you?
So what if i give you mono-syllable answers? Thats because you are disturbing or disrupting my concentration. Does that mean i hate you?
Please, i rarely talk to you cuz you are always busy doing your A maths homework in class. I simply do not wish to bother you least you snap at me for disturbing you. Secondly, i would really appreciate if you ask permission before taking my things outta my pencil box.
If you really want us to have a conflict EVERY SINGLE YEAR just because of your petty childish nonsense, so be it.
Sec one- You accused me blatantly of sucking up to Mrs Foo.
sec two- I can't remember what shit you said about me
Sec 3- Nothing
Sec 4- This crap issue
I have had enough. I hate it when people spread rumors about me. Do you have to call up EVERY single person in your contact list and say;
" Oh no... Pameline hates me.Why? What have i done...?"
You know what you have done.
My conscience is clear. I did not swear behind your back, back-stab you or even flame you online like what i am doing right now.
I only flame ppl online if they really piss me off. Congratulations, you have pissed me off. Shall i award you a medal?
I can never fathom what you want. So i shan't bother. Dun friend me la. Childish behavior should be left behind in primary school. You should be ashamed. So big still wanna play "Friend me, dun friend her" game.
Grow up~
9:49 PM
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Okay ppl, i think i won;t be blogging so often now since mid-yr exams are like TWO weeks away.
My nights have been plagued by nightmares and yar, sometimes it's really scary. Just woke up from TWO nightmares this morning and was still kinda freaked out by it. What is happening to my mind?
Yar...BP test is this coming Saturday, OMG, i'm soooo afraid. No Pamy, you must have confidence. This is what they are looking out for. ^-^
Wadever, tata. I;m going for Chem Tuition now.....
5:07 PM
Friday, April 4, 2008
LOL, I;m a bad senior, very bad.
On Wednesday, Priscilla and I went to the bubble tea stall to satisfy my Cheese fries hunger pangs. So we were waiting ....
Then suddenly, this girl came up to me and tapped me on the shoulder and shyly said "Hello..."
Then I gave her a blur look which says plainly "do i know you?" and replied "Hi" back to her. Then she ran off, waving. Then Priscilla asked if she was my junior or someone whom i know. And i confessed that i don't know her at all. Maybe she said hi to the wrong person.
Anyways, this morning, i was in the parade square chatting with Priscilla then from a distance, a group of sec one Girl Guides walked past and i recognised that girl who said hi to me on wednesday. She was holding on to the Guides uniform. Then i was like OMG, she really is my Junior.
Then i was like LOLing all the way.
I'm such a scatter-brain.
Whatever.
There's is PGA round 3 briefing tomorrow at 10am. Darn.
On a happier note, i had composed Never too late and composed The Great Escape just for fun. Darn, i love my piano.
I just need to grab that copy of Disney's Enchanted piano book...or i could wait... or maybe not...
Hmmm.
Things to buy tomorrow:
1) Beige satin ribbons for my pointe shoes.
2) Disney's Enchanted Piano book
3) Some weird breakfast snack at Raffles City The Marketplace.
3:21 PM
Thursday, April 3, 2008
OMG,
I so want the Enchanted complete piano score book!!!!
I wanna learn how to play True Love's Kiss and Ever ever after....Pamy, save up your money, dun eat during recess anymore. Buy that book!!!! Go Yamaha this Saturday and check if they have a not. OMG I want it!!!!
I also wanna learn Three Days Grace -Never too Late. OMG. It's a freaking awesome song la!
I must learn it...die die mus learn. OMG. If ppl can compose it on piano on YouTube, which means i also can. Come On Pamy.
Tasks:
Buy Enchanted Piano score book
Compose Never too late.
8:49 PM
Hey ppl. Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Blogger is nuts.
Anyways, i did two stupid things today.
1) Morning, i was in the car listening to 98.7fm. Then i heard this song and it's kinda cool la. So i dunno what is the title so i texted 987 to 72346 for the song title . Then the funny part is that they sent back the message and the song is " Simple Plan- Love isn't a lie" or something liddat. It is then i realied that i have the song in my mp3 player. So stupid of me. wasted 30 cents. Sigh~
2) During English lesson, the class was noisy so i shouted to Mr Quek.."MRS QUEK!!!!".Then Thendiana looked at me and started laughing it was then i realised that i said wrongly, LOL. Luckily Mr Quek never respond to my call. Haha...
Had PGA discussion with Rachel and Mdm Zurina after school. Then Mdm Zurina so drama, cuz she forgot something then she goes "AIEEEEE!" and lifts her right hand up to smack her forhead. Lol, totally like an opera singer. She did it thrice i think so damn funny. Haha.
I also alomost broke my leg today. I sat for quite a while so my right leg was numb. When i dropped my pen on the floor, i got up and bent over to retrive it and my leg just bent forward, luckily i held on to the bench in front of me or else my thighs will snap off from my calves, OMG.ouch!
3:18 PM
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I screwed up Geography today. Didn't manage to finish the paper, 8 marks are gone...gone ..gone..
Sigh~ At the rate i fared in SS and Geog, i think i will fail Combined Humanities. SS also didn't finish but it was worse than Geog. About 20 marks are gone from SS. It would be a miracle if i managed to even get a C5 or pass my Combined Humanities.
I'm thinking of wearing coloured contact lenses for Cultural Night..should i or should i not??? If i should, what colour? Hazel, gray, Gold ( haha...i know what you are thinking. Pameline Cullen!) , brown or -shriek- blue?
Hmm, but i really need to get used to contact lenses cause i will be wearing them in my ballet concert and i can't see a damn thing. Since i'm like dancing close to the edge, i might miss and fall offstage...whoops, shouldn't have even made that thought. *shudders*
I know when is Edward's birthday... I will never tell you. Beg me for it...Muahahaha....
Anyone wants to make a Twilight t-shirt and wear it to the Twilight movie? I know i'm dying to do that. But wouldn't it look as if we were like totally obsessed with the movie and many people will like stare at us???
By the way, every movie has an official web page. So here is Twilight the Movie. Note: The movie is still in production so web page is kinda empty until everything is done.
http://www.thetwilightmovie.com/
9:20 PM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Okay Twilighters, this is another present brought to you by the cast of Twilight. The Twilight OFFICIAL blog is up and running.
http://www.greetingsfromtwilight.com/
Go check it out. Theres like a cool new video about the ballet studio scene. Edward was like kena bashed against the mirror.Like, ouch!
Yeah. Horray. I love you Robert Pattinson. Thanks for making Edward come alive!Oh ya, i almost forget. I hate children too! Especially babies. I absolutely detest them. And i promise to clap for every show, every scene and everytime you appear on tv. I'll even clap for you 24/7. Now will you marry me????
(For those who have no idea what am i crapping about, follow this link and you will know why
Click here!)
3:16 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008
Okay...hmm. E math paper today was relatively easy. I am sure i'll score above 50 marks since i have confidently counted those questions which i am very sure i'll get it right. English, not too bad, but my answers were quite long, like 6 to 7 lines long. Well, what to do? I'm trained to answer like a literature student now.
Anyways, back to serious matters. I'm not sure what is your agenda. But can both of you please stop what you guys are doing now? If you want an apology, fine. I'm very sorry for calling out profanities about both of you. I'll even delete my post about what happened. We can pretend this thing didn't exist. But the nerve of either one of you telling WeiJie about what happened till he went to flame me online is preposterous. Flaming another person online is called cyber-bullying. It is a case where i can actually sue you in court. So think twice before you start flaming a person. Yes, i;m talking about you Weijie.
Robert Pattinson, gosh, i think i am swooning even as i type, your birthday is coming! Hooray!
2:12 PM
Friday, April 25, 2008
*updated playlist:
1) Yiruma-River flows in you ( potential Bella's lullaby)
2) Yiruma- Kiss the rain ( potential Esme's song)
3) Switchfoot- Learning to breathe ( Edward and bella- in Twilight, there is a paragraph that Edward tells Bella that he learns how to breathe, how to smile again after meeting her. So this songs reminds me of Edward.)
4) Teardrops on my guitar ( Bella)
5) Tongue Tied ( Bella n Jacob)
6) Come On ( Edward n bella)
Okay my room looks like as if a tornado has swept across it. Its a danger-zone! Anyways, went for chem tuition today. Was happy cuz i know all my chem stuff, well, most of it anyways. I'm sure i;m gonna pass chem. This will be my present to Ms Rina.
Anyways, after chem, i went to White Sands challenger to buy my earphones. Bought Creative ones at $19.00. Wanted to buy the noice-cancellation ones but it costs $49! WTH? Then proceeded to the library. Borrow James Patterson books. Dunno which ones Mdm Zurina had introduced themtitle to me so i just grabbed the one with the most interesting summary and a Stephen King- The Mist book and then headed home. Then i passed by the Ben n Jerry's ice-cream palour and since it was FREE CONE DAY, i felt obliged to grab one. But no. Must not indulge in sinful treats. After exams, can.
Went home, did physics revision. Composed parts of Switchfoot's Learning to Breathe on piano and continued pkaying Yiruma's piano pieces until mom and dad got home. Then no physics tuition today so i decided to slack until 9pm then study again. Yay!
Sigh-Social Studies was crap. Did not mangage to finish one of the SEQ. I knew i shouldn't have spend too much time on SBQ. haix. It;s over. Fail! Ahhh!
Edward Cullen, how i wish you were real. Then maybe you can bring me to Forks and we can spend the rest of eternity together~
7:48 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Okay, as requested by Priscilla, this is the link to go for your Twilight sneak peaks. The site will be updated every Tuesday with more new news about Twilight including interviews with Kristen and the incredibly hot Robert. Thus, every tuesday is know to all Twilighters as Twilight Tuedays!
Yay! *WARNING: SPOILER ALERT. IF YOU WANT TO BE SURPRISED, DO NOT GO TO THIS WEBSITE. IF YOU ARE A BIG FAN OF ROBERT, PLEASE WARN THE PEOPLE INHABITING YOUR HOUSE OF WHAT YOU ARE DOING. GET AN AMBULANCE READY AND MANY TISSUE PAPERS TO WIPE YOUR DROOL*
http://moviesblog.mtv.com/?s=twilight
4:39 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
First things first
1) I AM NOT CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE!!!! Thendiana was joking. Dying is not even on my mind.
2) I cried today because the results was another heavy blow to me since yesterday's big issue. My soul and mind really cannot take it so i broke down.
Does all of that answer your questions? By the way, yes, its true. I didn't get the PGA which was fine by me. Congratulations Rachel. You deserved it. PGA wasn't important to me.
Well, i got upset due to many throat-cutting remarks made by two girls. I mean, hello. I am already upset about your issue and there you are happily saying "Serves her right. She didn't deserve that award." What if Rachel didn't get it and i got it? Will you blame me too? Is it very fun? Making me cry all day long, making me skip lessons just to go for counsellings?
I already quit talking bad things about you guys and even took them back. But hey, you guys came back double the force. Tell me, is it fun?
Do you like being a sadist? Enjoying other people's misery? Sometimes when some teachers ask me what is wrong, i feel compiled to tell them what happened. Boy, to see the shock on their faces when they finally know your true colours. But no. I didn't want to ruin your perfect facade in SKSS. You get my point? And i keep hearing things you say about me from my many spies in 4e2 and from other classes. I'm ashamed that God had created a person with a heart so vile and black that it is equivalent to the dunnest smoke in Hell.
By the way, please watch out for your actions, some Very important people are tracking your every speech and every move. Think before you speak mindlessly about me. You never know what happens in the staff-room.
Thats about it. I would like to thank all my close friends for being there with me, when i cry or even giving me comforting smiles. Thanks so much. I think i will not be the same again. But i swear, i will not cry over this issue ever again. It's not worth it.
8:38 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
Okay, terrible things happened in school. Don't want to elaborate any further least i reopen new wounds and further anger a certain person whom shall not be named.
Yes, i know i'm not supposed to use the computer until my exams are over but i really need to get it off my chest.
I am no longer angry after going for councilling which Thendiana referred me to. The councilor prayed for me since both of us were Christians so it made things easier. She told me to forgive and forget, don't bear any grudges anymore as they will harm me further if i suppress it in. After the councilling, i felt drained but otherwise fine. I;m not afraid of any bullying words. What is there to be afraid. They are just words.
So i'll just forget it, i will erase this from my memory. Ask me and i will give u a blank look. Do me a favour, don't remind me of this issue anymore. What is done is done.
Nothing has happened.
After listening to Edward's Lullaby and playing it a dozen times over and over on the piano
( yes..all twilight fans. Many ppl claimed that this song, Yiruma- River flows in you, is Edward's lullaby to Bella)
I feel relaxed .
No more injustice, everytime i look out of the door, i wish that Edward or Robin will save me and bring me to another world where friends remain as friends and there are no enemies.
No, i;m not suicidal. Just feeling depressed and emo. Maybe i should try slashing my wrists haha..kidding. like i will be ever so stupid to try it.
Wadever. I'm done~ I'm of to study Bio!
Hold on i forgot to post this: Twilight Behind the scenes (new) with part of the proposed movie trailer inside
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27UnmiA_ge8
OMG, i can't wait to watch this movie! It's gonna be great!
5:25 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Okay, today i'm going for Lit class. Gonna confess to teacher that i did not do the project and did not want to waste my precious time chasing after my project members, screw them anyways.
I'd rather gaze at Edward Cullen aka Robert Pattinson all day long. Sigh, now i have two crushes, my darling Robin from Teen Titans and Edward Cullen from Twilight. Gosh, i'm a two timer....darn. Sorry guys.
Then today i realised something. The rapper Flo Rida, who was shot to fame by the song Low.
If you paste his name together into one word, it says, Florida( USA). Weird huh?
yEAH, was feeling rather lethagic today, wandering from room to room like a lost ghost. My horoscope is opposing me today. It says i must gather my project mates and tell them to complete our project, reconcile our "friendship" Yes, i hate them, i wasted 20 smses on them and most of my nights when i should be studying while waiting for them to go online. Crap.
Darn, if they were in SKSS, i'll show them a thing or two. No one opposes me during project meetings, no one.
I hate going to lit class now. But i'm going to work hard and screw their fucking grades into their asses. Show them who is boss....assholes.
Sorry, lil rant here and there... back to my lovely Edward Cullen. If only i can have a picture with you, my life is complete, Hell, i took pictures with Robin already...Edward, you are next! *giggles like a crazed fan-girl*
10:05 AM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Okay i got pissed off again but not by the usuals. It's by the two Ms that sit together in the same row. Clue: Nah ask me.
It started when Mr Quek was asking them to read what they had done for oral picture discussion. So M1 read first. Then when the first sentence didn't make any sense, i saw M2 nudging M1 and both of them looked at KY as if blaming her.
Then when suddenly M1 started talking about the students being siblings or relatives. Then i started thinking.." WTH? This picture is not even about family day or whatcrap". Then M1 said. I think they might be relatives cuase they look the same. And i was like my cousin don;t look like me bodoh. Since when relatives looked like each other? Hello? Obviously you didn;t study Biology to know about Heredity.Then Daren shouted " Is that relevant?" And i also whispered to Thendiana "Not relevant to the picture lor". By chance, M2 overheard and then both of them got pissed.
Then later they saw that no one was interested in them cuz 3/4 of the class doing their own things. Then they were like "Aiya, we dun wanna read already la. Somebody said we not relevant. See what they write la."
So Mr quek called on my group. Then Hwee Lin asked me to read but i didn't want to. So i was like ..." Dun wan, Wan Ngoh read..."
Then M2 imitated me whining. WTF? FB!!! I refused to read because i don't wanna show off. Okay. Its like everytime mr Quek nominate me to read. Then when Wan Ngoh started reading, both of them shut up cuz our group's sentences makes sense. I mean pls la. If you ran out of lines just think of something related to the picture. What crap about Oh i think they are relatives cuz they look alike. RUBBISH.
OH and M1 i heard sooo many gossips about you. Wanna know a famous one? I can name 5 thousand ppl that hates you since sec 1 starting from me.
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Excuse the vulgar censored profanities above. It is not for the faint hearted.
Back to the good old world. Oh ya. OMG! Robert Pattinson is soooooo hot. When i saw him acting behind-the -scenes in Twilight. I was like....OMG!!! EDWARD CULLEN IS ALIVE!!!!!
If you want links, i'll post it online here:
Entertainment Tonight interview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8q3l6L1ZDA
MTV INTERVIEW: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLL_jliMisw
Biology class ( footage) : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ezxo-Xh_6sE
Famous crash scene : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-3m_IM6GvU&feature=related
* Note: Edward ran away... he is supposed to stay by Bella's side..Oh dear~
3:33 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Oh wow oh wow oh wow....
Attention all Twilight fans, go to Stephenie Meyer website or Youtube and check out Twilight behind the scenes action. Oh my god. I'm sooo ,looking forward to the show!!!!!
5:01 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I don't know about my PGA results and it would be good if you don't ask me about it. It adds on to my already frazzled nerves. Ya~
Thanks for your cooperation.
I don't know if you can hear me
Or if you're even there
I don't know if you would listen
To a humble prayer
Yes i know I'm just an outcast
I shouldn't speak to you
Still i see your face and wonder
Weren't you once an outcast to?
God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don't find on Earth
God help my people
The poor and down-trod
God help the outcasts
Or nobody will...
I ask for nothing
I can get by
But i know so many
Less lucky than I
Please help me people
We look to you still
I thought we all were
The children of God
8:37 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Okay, one word to describe today's B-P test....WOW!
Actually it's kinda okay. At first you don't know what to do...then as you proceed on you get the hang of it. I guess, i didn't really prepare it well. But i did score in the impromptu speech. I did not prepare any speech la. It;s like okay, i just write down definitions of ASEAN. The rest just came out from my mouth.
Well, it was nice to see some of my fellow SKY Guides at HQ. They also wished us luck. And my PGA Test camp campers. I saw 4 of them which i knew. So sweet of them to give their best wishes.
Haha....Ballet. pointe Shoes again. I'm starting to like going en pointe. it;s like so damn fun and my dream when i started ballet in Primary 3, was to go en pointe. I guess that now i've gotten my wish.
Alright, enought crapping, gonna do tuition homework. Starting tomorrow, no blogging unless it's really important. study and mug allllll the way! whoo~
10:03 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
Muahahaha...tomorrow is the big day. Tomorrow is the day that might change my life forever.... tomorrow is the B-P TEST!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!
I'm so damn scared now la. It's like 12 hours later, you'll be in that room, alone, preparing for your question/task.
But i would like to thank Mdm Zurina, omg she was like so damn nice. We had another "briefing" and then SKY Guides presented us with motivational and Good Luck cards to me and Rachel. Then I had a prayer session with Mdm Zurina and Rachel. iT WAS, LIKE whoa!
Then i stayed back in school cuz my bag is kinda heavy. So i lingered around and finally got bored so i sneaked into the empty school hall and started playing the piano.
I was alone, the hall was empty, i played my heart and soul out. So damn fun!
Ya, then stayed back for taps. Then Mdm Zurina asked me if i had fun playing the piano just now and i was shocked that she knew. Then she told me some guides saw me in the hall, so she thought that either i was playing badminton or playing the piano. HAHA, then she said it's not me to play badminton so she think i was playing the piano. LOL.
Then she hugged me and thanked me for staying back. LOL. Ya.... so touching. Some guides hugged me and wished me luck.
Thanks sooo much for all those lovely letters. ^_^
9:29 PM
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
i shall not let this matter pull me down.
I am going to do well for my physics test, do well for PGA and become skss next President Guide and make mummy and daddy proud.
I have my best friend's issue to worry about.
Don;t bother me....
Don;t talk to me...
I dun give a damn....
You know who you are...
Oh i;m sorry, i forgot. You don't go online that often, let alone read my blog.
Well, thats too bad.
What a sad life you have, don;t you know who Nelly Futardo is? Ohh, i don;t even think you know who is Kanye West or who Rihanna is.
Sad~
All day long is *-*-*.
10:18 PM
I am seriously pissed off right now, again.
This person, apparently with no whatsoever reason, started spreading around lies claiming that i hate her. WHAT THE FUCK?
Hello? Since when did i proclaim to the world or even got the idea in my head that i hate you?
Yes, i know i still bear grudges about your mindless comment during sec 1. But i have let that matter rest and buried it away. Today, you just dug it out, slashed it with your cutting remarks and even rub salt into the fresh wounds.
So what if i don't talk to you in class? I don;t have the reason to. Does that make you think i hate you? So what if i laugh behind your back? Someone made a joke. Does that mean i hate you?
So what if i give you mono-syllable answers? Thats because you are disturbing or disrupting my concentration. Does that mean i hate you?
Please, i rarely talk to you cuz you are always busy doing your A maths homework in class. I simply do not wish to bother you least you snap at me for disturbing you. Secondly, i would really appreciate if you ask permission before taking my things outta my pencil box.
If you really want us to have a conflict EVERY SINGLE YEAR just because of your petty childish nonsense, so be it.
Sec one- You accused me blatantly of sucking up to Mrs Foo.
sec two- I can't remember what shit you said about me
Sec 3- Nothing
Sec 4- This crap issue
I have had enough. I hate it when people spread rumors about me. Do you have to call up EVERY single person in your contact list and say;
" Oh no... Pameline hates me.Why? What have i done...?"
You know what you have done.
My conscience is clear. I did not swear behind your back, back-stab you or even flame you online like what i am doing right now.
I only flame ppl online if they really piss me off. Congratulations, you have pissed me off. Shall i award you a medal?
I can never fathom what you want. So i shan't bother. Dun friend me la. Childish behavior should be left behind in primary school. You should be ashamed. So big still wanna play "Friend me, dun friend her" game.
Grow up~
9:49 PM
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Okay ppl, i think i won;t be blogging so often now since mid-yr exams are like TWO weeks away.
My nights have been plagued by nightmares and yar, sometimes it's really scary. Just woke up from TWO nightmares this morning and was still kinda freaked out by it. What is happening to my mind?
Yar...BP test is this coming Saturday, OMG, i'm soooo afraid. No Pamy, you must have confidence. This is what they are looking out for. ^-^
Wadever, tata. I;m going for Chem Tuition now.....
5:07 PM
Friday, April 4, 2008
LOL, I;m a bad senior, very bad.
On Wednesday, Priscilla and I went to the bubble tea stall to satisfy my Cheese fries hunger pangs. So we were waiting ....
Then suddenly, this girl came up to me and tapped me on the shoulder and shyly said "Hello..."
Then I gave her a blur look which says plainly "do i know you?" and replied "Hi" back to her. Then she ran off, waving. Then Priscilla asked if she was my junior or someone whom i know. And i confessed that i don't know her at all. Maybe she said hi to the wrong person.
Anyways, this morning, i was in the parade square chatting with Priscilla then from a distance, a group of sec one Girl Guides walked past and i recognised that girl who said hi to me on wednesday. She was holding on to the Guides uniform. Then i was like OMG, she really is my Junior.
Then i was like LOLing all the way.
I'm such a scatter-brain.
Whatever.
There's is PGA round 3 briefing tomorrow at 10am. Darn.
On a happier note, i had composed Never too late and composed The Great Escape just for fun. Darn, i love my piano.
I just need to grab that copy of Disney's Enchanted piano book...or i could wait... or maybe not...
Hmmm.
Things to buy tomorrow:
1) Beige satin ribbons for my pointe shoes.
2) Disney's Enchanted Piano book
3) Some weird breakfast snack at Raffles City The Marketplace.
3:21 PM
Thursday, April 3, 2008
OMG,
I so want the Enchanted complete piano score book!!!!
I wanna learn how to play True Love's Kiss and Ever ever after....Pamy, save up your money, dun eat during recess anymore. Buy that book!!!! Go Yamaha this Saturday and check if they have a not. OMG I want it!!!!
I also wanna learn Three Days Grace -Never too Late. OMG. It's a freaking awesome song la!
I must learn it...die die mus learn. OMG. If ppl can compose it on piano on YouTube, which means i also can. Come On Pamy.
Tasks:
Buy Enchanted Piano score book
Compose Never too late.
8:49 PM
Hey ppl. Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Blogger is nuts.
Anyways, i did two stupid things today.
1) Morning, i was in the car listening to 98.7fm. Then i heard this song and it's kinda cool la. So i dunno what is the title so i texted 987 to 72346 for the song title . Then the funny part is that they sent back the message and the song is " Simple Plan- Love isn't a lie" or something liddat. It is then i realied that i have the song in my mp3 player. So stupid of me. wasted 30 cents. Sigh~
2) During English lesson, the class was noisy so i shouted to Mr Quek.."MRS QUEK!!!!".Then Thendiana looked at me and started laughing it was then i realised that i said wrongly, LOL. Luckily Mr Quek never respond to my call. Haha...
Had PGA discussion with Rachel and Mdm Zurina after school. Then Mdm Zurina so drama, cuz she forgot something then she goes "AIEEEEE!" and lifts her right hand up to smack her forhead. Lol, totally like an opera singer. She did it thrice i think so damn funny. Haha.
I also alomost broke my leg today. I sat for quite a while so my right leg was numb. When i dropped my pen on the floor, i got up and bent over to retrive it and my leg just bent forward, luckily i held on to the bench in front of me or else my thighs will snap off from my calves, OMG.ouch!
3:18 PM
